Yes sir, I WILL be happy!

The Secret mentions that in order for us to get what we really want, we first have to be happy with ourselves and with our situations.  I think maybe this might be one of the reasons why things haven’t been working out for me.  This whole job hunt thing has really been getting me down, and it’s been going on for so long that it’s hard to just flick the switch back to being happy.  But this month is all about improving relationships, and the number one relationship I need to improve is my relationship with myself.

Ideally, I’d like to get rid of the negativity which sometimes holds my mind hostage, to be happier in general, and to not let rejection from job applications get me down.  To do this, I’m going to keep doing meditation as a means of quieting my mind, and I’m also going to revisit the idea of thinking only good thoughts before I go to sleep.  Lately my last thoughts have mostly been about how I’m tired and wish I was asleep, but I’m going to start making a real conscious effort to think about good things again. 

There are a few Things to Achieve which I believe will help me see the brighter side of life.  The first is “BE and FEEL happy now.”  This particular Thing makes me feel like I’m in some sort of happiness boot camp, and some huge, beefy, army sergeant is yelling at me: “You WILL be happy, do you hear me? You WILL be happy and you will start RIGHT NOW!”  The last person I want to upset is someone who has access to weapons, so yes sir, I WILL be happy.

The second Thing which I believe will help me is “You must change your focus and begin to think about all the things that are wonderful about you.  Look for the positives in you.”  I think I’m going to complete this task in the same way that I’m making my list of things I appreciate about Duncan.  Each day I’m going to write down one new thing which I like about me.  It sounds horrible and cheesy, but if it’s going to make me happier and help me achieve my goals, then I’m prepared to give it a go.

I’m editing this to note that as I finished writing this, I got a call from the manager of a company I’d applied for a job with a few weeks ago.  At the end of last week I received an email saying that the position had been filled, but I’ve just had a phone call to say that the person they’d offered the job to has turned the position down, and they would like to see me tomorrow afternoon to interview me.  It feels like the Universe gives me a little sign every time I’m on the right track with something.  This is hilarious!