An epiphany while having my annual haircut

I finally tried meditation.  Previously the closest I had come to meditating was sitting outside the Work and Income building at The Mount and pretending to meditate for the amusement of passing pedestrians.  Why?  Because I was 14 and it made sense at the time.

So, to sum up real meditation:  it made me feel sleepy, but that’s ok because I like sleep, and it probably just meant I was relaxed.  Although, the day after I meditated I was in an especially good mood for no apparent reason.  Whether meditation had anything to do with that, I don’t know. 

One thing I can confirm, I will be doing it again.

That’s one more thing I can cross off my Things to Achieve.  I have been working on the Things I mentioned the other day – about feeling good about money.  I was finding this really hard because I really don’t have a lot of it at the moment.  It wasn’t until yesterday, when I was slightly freaking out about having to pay for a haircut, that it occurred to me how I’m supposed to feel good about money. 

These days, I only spend money on things I need (and yes, I did NEED a haircut.  It had been a year since my last one.  Please don’t judge me).  So instead of worrying about the fact that I’m spending my last few precious dollars every time I buy something, I should be focussing on the thing I am buying, and how that makes me happy.

So, I’m very happy with my much needed haircut.  The money I had to spend to get it is irrelevant.  From now on, money = happiness because I’m spending it on things I need, which makes me happy.

Does this make any sense at all outside my head?

Last week I said that I thought I needed to try attracting something small.  I want to start working on this.  As a side note, I find this idea a little baffling.  The Secret states that it is as easy to manifest one million dollars as it is to manifest one dollar.  In other words, it is as easy to attract something big as it is to attract something small.  So why does The Secret also state that I should start by attracting something small?

I suppose it is not my job to question, it is just my job to do.  I’m still thinking up something suitably small to try attracting.  When I do, I’ll let you know how I get on.